January 2009

January 21, Wednesday. Journal Excerpt

Week # 18

I am getting bigger and bigger, the ravenous hunger of pregnancy seems to have finally arrived! While meditating this morning I could not stop the stream of food thoughts: Spaghetti with tomato sauce, steamed veggies, miso soup, green smoothies, pancakes (oh I really wanted pancakes!) with strawberries and yoghurt, chocolate, sesame milk, wildfire vegan pizza…..So now I am sitting here with an amazing GREEN SMOOTHIE!! (I still want pancakes though)

I’ve been gaining weight at what feels like a rapid clip. I woke up on Monday morning feeling puffy faced and just plain fat….hooray that same day I found a book that reminded me to celebrate my body from the inside rather than the outside! I am going through an amazing transformation right now that does not fit in a box. I am a yummy mummy and I celebrate the changes my body is going through on this journey to motherhood.

Wonderful things:

I have been feeling the baby move! Always when I am lying quietly in bed, little tiny bloops. I first felt them on Jan. 16, the end of week 17.

I had a beautiful dream about breast feeding my baby, and the next day as I was sitting topless in a sunny window I looked down and my nipples were leaking a clear fluid, pre-colostrum. The most amazing thing I have seen my body do yet, getting ready to feed my baby.

I discovered the Crystal Pool next door uses ozone, so I’ve been swimming again.


January 8, Thursday. Journal Excerpt

Week # 16

We went to see Uta, the midwife we have chosen to work with, lovely little blue-eyed elf of a woman with a peaceful personality and a great bio: I have been a midwife for 26 years, completing my midwifery education in 1981 in Germany and since then have attended approximately 2000 births. The midwifery care I provide is built upon my strong belief in birth as a natural process. I see myself as a professional guide accompanying women during this very intense personal experience and I am very passionate about the special services and care our ancient profession has to offer.

I am educated in classical homeopathy, traditional Chinese medicine, aromatherapy and herbal medicine for use in pregnancy, labour and the postpartum period. I registered with the College of Midwives of BC in 2006 and have been working as a midwife in Victoria since the summer of 2007.

Doesn’t that sound like someone you would want on your team!?

We all had a lovely visit and my blood tests all came back wonderfully, no disease (!), good iron, and I am an A+ blood type which I didn’t know. (NOTE: Having my blood tested was one of the two tests I had done during my pregnancy. The second was a test for GBS. Both of these tests were non-invasive and I felt that the information they provided was very useful. Tests I declined included ultrasound, gestational diabetes, and use of the doppler.) Uta had a hard time finding the baby’s heartbeat today, baby was feeling shy and hiding. We could hear it moving around a lot though, and I started to laugh, listening to all the precious kicks and jumps. We finally heard it and baby was down low on the left side. I was just now thinking about it moving all around and sitting down there and it made me feel so flooded with love. My baby is doing such adorable things already!

January 6, Tuesday 2009. Journal Excerpt.

Week # 16

Wow! 3 ½ months pregnant! I am so happy to be into the second trimester and to have left morning sickness and fatigue behind! I am feeling closer to my usual self again.


The classic pregnant self-portrait in the bathroom mirror!

We had a beautiful Christmas with all the kids together. David and I were fully appreciating and enjoying our last Christmas without children. Next year we will be with our six month old beauty! I also realized realized on Winter Solstice that it will be another half a year before sweet baby comes out! It seemed like such a long time to wait, yet also such a glorious long time to still be pregnant.

I am really starting to get a belly. One that doesn’t disappear over night once dinner has digested. Oh and I think I am going to get a HUGE belly before this baby is born! It looks like it is going that way.

I was looking on-line at other women’s 16 week bellies and what a variety! (Check out 16 weeks on Flickr) We all grow so differently. It also made me realize how many souls are making their way to Earth right now, all kinds of different people are en-route to arrive as infants on the same day, same month, same year as the one growing in my womb. It is such an amazing thing to realize, the constant creation of life that happens here, so much new, vibrant energy being born again and again and again. I am so blessed to be a part of it.